"Allah mencintai kita dgn cara-Nya sendiri. Kadang dgn cara yg gak kita mengerti sampe2 kita mikir bahwa Allah benci kita :')" - Dian Pelangi

 mungkin gw sering banget ngepost kata-kata itu, dan mungkin gw sering ngebahas soal ini.
hari kamis gw dapet kabar kalo misalnya sahabat gw Vatia mau pindah, gw shock pas tau itu soalnya kalo gw ada freetime pasti gw maennya sama dia, dan gw sama keluarga nya tuh udah deket banget. gw kalo maen ke rumah dia,itu tuh udah kaya rumah 'gw'. waktu sd pasti setiap hari jumat gw maen sama dia selama 4 tahun. dan barusan dia pamitan mau pindah...... sumpah itu shock banget pas dia nelpon kalo udah di depan rumah gw dan mau pamita. serasa ada yang ilang :" langsung ada pikiran "ntar gw kalo ada freetime maen sama siapa?" dan yang bikin shock juga adalah Laras mau pindah juga ntar semester depan, itu tuh nambah gimana gitu....


hubungannya mereka berdua sama kalimat itu adalah, kaya Allah ngambil orang-orang yang gw sayang walau ga semuanyaO:) soalnya gw masih blom menemukan temen yang 'segila' mereka hahahaha cuma life must go on :")

"We are changing because we are growing up, we are not in neverland, we are not peterpan"

the lesson for my life

like most people said, teenager is confusing. they act  like adult but they think like child. so their parent will so worry about them. but the teenager feeling is so sensitive, how much pain in their heart if they disappointed with thing who espesially what they really want. it is so much hurt when they get disappoint espesially from the people who they love.



now I know how much pain that my sister get when she was 15 years old. pain that from me, from my parent. if I compare my pain and her pain I think she get more pain than me when she was 15 years old. But I think is the best way from her, Allah never give a problem that we can't through it. when we go back to 3 years ago, she didn't accepted from senior high school that she want to get in, she had problem for adaptasion (like me) when she get to senior high school, but she just patien to through it. and now go back to a year ago she didn't accepted from university that she want to get in. but look now, she got scholarship untill she graduated from her university, she pass the selected round 2 as student exchange in Malaysia, just one more step again she can go to Malaysia :D I always pray for her :)



now I more believe that Allah always fair. no matter how much hurt, pain I get, I only through it with pray, patient, smile and try to find the result of my problem.



I miss those people who always make me smile, I miss my bestfriends, I miss my sister, I miss my IXCyber, I miss my old life. I know it will make me grow up. I know...
but I really really miss those people :"

It's true

"People are always telling me to smile, like smiling is going to just take away all the hurt and pain. Well I've tried that, I've tried hiding my sarrows and covering the sadness in smiles and what I've learned is that when it hurts this much, inside your heart always has a way of showing it no matter how many mask you wear" - Unknown

Tyler Ward - The Hardest Thing

lagu ini saya temukan di youtube yang saya sedang melihat video fanfics. karna lagunya enak saya pun mencari lirik lagunya, dan yap. liriknya dalem banget-_-

Tyler Ward - The Hardest Thing

Still framed photograph
Of you and me together
Is all I have of me and you
Anymore
We were so in love and
We thought it'd last forever
but in the storm
We were torn

And I won't forget you
Don't regret you
The hardest thing I've had to do
Is how to live without you
And I wonder why
We both walked away
I'm lost without you
Still crazy for you
Just turn around come back
Because your smile is overdue
And I miss
I miss you

If I only knew the words to say
That would make you turn around
I would say the words to you
More than a million times
It's been forever but that hasn't changed
What you mean to me
And darling can't you see?

And I won't forget you
Don't regret you
The hardest thing I've had to do
Is how to live without you
And I wonder why
We both walked away
I'm lost without you
Still crazy for you
Just turn around come back
Because your smile is overdue
And I miss
I miss you

I'm sorry for all I did
What I said
And the things I hid
I'm finally over me
Is that too late for you?
I can't imagine where I'd be
If you had never rescued me
You gave the ultimate
Now I need you
Yes I need you

And I won't forget you
Don't regret you
The hardest thing I've had to do
Is how to live without you
And I wonder why
We both walked away
I'm lost without you
Still crazy for you
Just turn around come back
Because your smile is overdue
And I miss
I miss you 

I'm so tired with all of this. I know I don't allowed to say 'I'm tired' cause it just make me more tired. but I think sometimes it didn't make a sense for me.
I miss someone who just always make me laugh. someone who taught me if we patient we will get a great news.

"B-egin your day w/ L-ove in your heart E-xpect blessings S-hare goodness S-hine like the sun I-nspire someone N-ever forget that G-od is with us when we obey HIM." - anonymous